Cakes and Fitness

Whats on my mind??? Working out and sweets.. go figure eh?
First of all I am taking a cake decorating class with my sister-in-law. It's a lot of fun and just fuels my desire to own a bakery (dunno if I've mentioned that on here) and at the same time it makes me not want to right now. I don't really have the time to spend on it at the moment.  

I keep thinking about it at night when the day is over and I am laying in bed trying my hardest to go to sleep.  I think  I might like to have a specialty bakery for diabetics, people with food allergies, and the rest of us who would love to indulge in sweet wonderfulness but would rather not have the calories, hydrogenated everything, and bleached processed ingredients.  It just sounds like a wonderful idea.  But as ideas go, there are many steps before any sort of reality in this. I have NO recipies for such things LOL! Soo right now I'm going to keep the idea in my head and start figuring out how to make sweets and treats in a healthy way. One step at a time right?

So making massive amounts of icing and scooping up the crisco I can't help but think...wow I really want to treat my body better than this. Which is why the healthy bakery idea started..not to mention the many people I know who can't have the junk... But it also makes me think about my choices of food and exercise.  Right after Katey was born, when I didn't have to work..and before I was cleared to..., I went to the gym a few times and although I couldn't do much it felt great. Then Zack went back to work..and so did I and well things have gotten to the point that I haven't even taken a walk in a while. And well, I really really miss it.  But at the same time I struggle with finding the motivation to do it.  I really don't like leaving my SugarBunny and with work and occasional babysitters to have a date with my husband, and once a week for a couple hours for the cake class... I just feel to awful to leave her again to go to the gym. I feel like I don't have enough time with her as it is, and I'm not sure what to do about it.  

My priorities are imbalanced and I feel it.  So this is my first step.. putting it out there and hopefully I will work out a solution or God will find one for me.. no scratch that.. how about I will let myself trust that God has the perfect path and the strength to find and follow it.  

Quantum Faith

Where does the time go...

Katelyn is almost 4 months old and today has discovered how to roll from her back to her belly. But she doesn't particularly like being on her belly so instead she has chosen to roll her buns over but continue to lay on her arm on her side.. and bam she fell asleep.
... I can't blame her, I'd rather sleep on my side too.
So it the precious moments of her sleep I thought it was long overdue to blog. I have a lot to say I mean its been 3 months..So I may not finish, I may ramble on forever, or I may break this into a few blogs.

First and Foremost.. motherhood..
I have taken care of children since I was a child myself. From the age of 7-17 my family took in over sixty foster children 95% of them under a year old, many we picked up from the hospital just a day or 2 old. (I would love to write some about this ..note to self) I can do diapers, spit up, bottles, crying, carrying in any form or fashion. I loved those babies cared for them, a few are my siblings now, many I miss and remember often. But I was not prepared for motherhood.
Nothing could prepare my soul for the complete and udder love I have for MY child. The amazing feeling and shock of looking at her and knowing half of her came from me, and half from my husband. I can't believe how fast she is growing, but I also feel like she has been with me forever; how could I live my life before her?
Love and happiness is not the only thing I was unprepared for. Nursing was another. I was worried about nursing before; comfort level mostly. I wanted to do it but it seemed weird to put a child "there". The moment I saw her that fear was over. But a whole new one developed. I had supply issues and still she has a formula bottle here and there. Talk about inadequacy issues...The first 2 months of her life I was constantly stressed out and emotional about the amount of liquid coming from my breasts. She has gained well and is healthy though.
My marriage has changed too. I am grateful that we had the time we did before having children. I miss our quality time we use to have. I feel like, no scratch that, I know I don't have enough time for him, much less the house or cat or job. He is a wonderful father. I am blessed to see his love for her, her grins and giggles just to get his attention, and so very grateful for all his help with her, the house, and my emotional stability. I honestly am amazed by his strength and thank God for him everyday.
I am happy to be a mother of such a wonderful baby... I always knew I wanted to be a mommy when I grew up...

This would definetly be too long to write about any other subject so I will try to find some more time to write again soon.

My 1st Pregnancy

Birth Story

I wanted to have this in writing so I don't forget any details. Here is the birth story of my daughter. She was born at 36 weeks.

At 5am on the 24th I was kinda starting to wake up to take a pee break when I started to go, I tried to hold it and I couldn't and I immediately realized it was not urine. I jumped up and ran to the bathroom. I leaked a lot of fluid and continued to. I hollared at my husband and we just kinda stared at each other in shock. I called my mom and told her and she told me to go to the hospital, I told her I would call the dr. so I called and paged the emergency number. I didn't think I was having contractions but when I thought about it I was getting slight gas pains for 30 seconds 5 min apart. I decided I wanted to take a shower and shave my legs. And I couldn't find one damn list with instructions on what to pack. An on call Dr called back and said if my water broke I should go to the hospital immediately. I really wasn't sure if I should wait or not, because I didn't want to go too early. We stopped and DH ran in a place to get us some food. We didn't get to the hospital until 7 even though its 5 minutes away. We had the hardest time functioning I have never felt in such a stupor..


The L&D called my Dr and he wanted them to put me on pitocin because she was 4 weeks early and my water broke they didn't want her sitting in there if something was wrong. The contractions went from slight gas pains..to strong gas pains, to a muscle cramp/ period cramp pain that got stronger and stronger. ( I'm going to kinda sum up this part, but if anyone has specific questions i'm more than happy to ask. ) Zack and my mom were in the room with me, I needed them there to get me through it and I am comfortable enough to say what I am feeling to them without feeling bad about it. I didn't want anyone else to come up to the hospital until after the baby was born, because I needed that time to meet and bond with her. At 3cm I decided to get the Stadol, it didn't not make the pain any better but it made it hard for me to continued with the scattered all over the place thoughts and so I just had to close my eyes and focus on breathing, which was a huge help! It also helped me relax a lot apparently because I progressed within that hour from a 7. I did not want to get the epidural and i am really happy I didn't. I was able to change positions, and feel and get up easily afterwards. I delivered her at 12:48pm, when they let me push I pushed her completely out in one push. It was a weird feeling I could feel everything like her head and shoulders, and I could tell I tore(not too badly I'm told) but I didn't feel pain from it. The last hour was AWFUL, but I am lucky it was so short.


She was born 5lbs 15oz and 19 3/4 inches long. She came out SCREAMING and got an 8 and then 9 on her apgar. For being early she is perfect, because she is small we have to make sure she stays warm enough, but that is it! They kept us in the hospital for 48 hours just because she was early. I was glad to be there, it was really nice and the nurses were wonderful. (a few days later.. we are having to keep an eye on her Jaundice that has gotten pretty high, but it came down a little from yesterday)

So without further adeiu....

Katelyn Oriana

I love her more than anything :)

23 weeks Pregnant

Today I am 23 weeks pregnant with my first baby. I found out about 3 weeks ago that we are having a girl! I am really excited and the reality of actually having a baby started settling in after we found out the gender and got to see her on the ultrasound. I can't help but to obsess over cute little dresses and sweaters. I am not popping out too terribly much, but they say you don't your first pregnancy because all your stomach muscles have never seperated before. Its hard to believe that we are only 17 weeks away from the due date! Here is a picture from a few days ago.

I am making a bit of a goofy face but meh oh well. My world is kinda revolving around being pregnant and getting things ready for the baby. Including trying to habitually clean our house so that it is the way we want it 90% of the time instead of, well lets be honest, 10% of the time. Its much easier to relax and enjoy being home when it is clean and comfortable, but it has taken me some time to find a system that doesn't make me feel overwhelmed. I've had a pretty good pregnancy so far, the morning sickness tapered off at about 14-15 weeks and I soon thereafter started enjoying eating again I have gained like 14lbs I think. I went to visit my dad and whole side of the family in California a few weeks ago. I really enjoyed it! I have missed them a lot. well... im on the phone so i guess the blog is over for now...

Hello my name is BreAnne and there is a baby in my belly...

It seem's like its about time I posted about whats going on in our lives... I am pregnant! I am almost 11 weeks along. The baby's due date is January 21st, 09. I am extremely excited about it, but you may not be able to tell looking at me. It is not easy to be jumping for joy when you are soooo very tired. I have had some morning sickness, been very tired, and for the first time in my life not wanted to eat anything. Hopefully, in a week or two I will start feeling better, I don't know if they sleepiness goes away, but I hope so because I don't really want to nap through the rest of the year! I have no clue when I will start showing, but I cannot wear my pants that button up without leaving them unbuttoned and unzipped when I sit down, which is probably a little awkward outside of my house.... I am the first kid on my side of the family to have a baby, and Zach is the last in his, funny huh?! I will have to post pictures as things get farther along; and to answer the most popular question of all so far- we are planning to find out the sex, but it wont happen until about the end of August.