Monday, December 31, 2007


I meant to do this earlier, but haven't had that motivation to write a big blog. We had a fantastic time in Las Vegas. So here is blog to tell about it.
We stayed a little out of town the first two nights and were both pretty cranky because we didn't like it when we got out there. We did ride the roller coaster and Buffalo Bills while we were there; now I will tell you it was fun, but its because its been a few weeks and i dont really remember the pain it made my neck feel or the anxiety I get hearing the "clank clank" sound and knowing there is a free fall when the noise stops. Rollercoasters and I have a love hate relationship. But that one made me not want to ride the Manhattan one at New York New York, I hope it didn't bother Zack too terribly bad that we didn't.

The first day we drove out to the Hoover damn. That was a really pretty drive. I love watching the mountains! It was really cool looking and interesting; I really enjoyed that day. This picture is to show how much water has been drained out of Lake Mead, that was amazing to see the water line like that. Its a little bit of a scary thought too. Zach was my own personal tour guide and I really enjoyed that day a lot. The weather the whole time we were there was about 50 degrees, but not much wind and sunny. (Everyone back at home had and ice storm, trees down, and no power. we were very lucky)

Once we got into Vegas we checked in at our hotel which was Hooters hotel and casino. We actually really enjoyed it, the rooms were new and clean and ours was located where is was easy to park and get into. The Hooter's girls were the dealers at the tables and the whole place was much more fun and relaxed than most the ones we visited. Of our whole trip I think most of our time was spent shopping. We went to outlet malls, regular malls, shops inside casinos and everywhere else. We did a lot of shopping when we went to Europe and it seemed normal to do on vacation. We bought a few things we really wanted and just looked the rest of the time. We went into like thirteen different casinos and they were huge and fascinating. My personal favorites were Caesar's Palace and the way the shops were designed at Paris. I will post a video from watching the water show at the Bellagio later too, because that was really neat!
We tasted different kinds of cokes from around the world and bought a bunch of stuff at the M&M store. We did gamble too! We played a few cheap slots, but mostly played Pai Gow Poker. You get 7 cards and have to make 2 hands one of 5 and one of 2. Both hands have to beat the dealer to win, BUT both have to lose to lose. Therefore we could play a long time on the same money. We ended up breaking about even on the gambling money which is better than I had planned on :)
We decided we wanted to see a show or two. The ones on the top of our list were not playing that week. But one thing I've always wanted to go to was a medieval show where you eat and watch a jousting show. So we went to the Tournament of Kings at the Excalibur and I am glad we did. We also went to Bodies the Exhibition. Which was displays of actual human parts that had been preserved with some kind of process that replaced tissue with some kind of silicon or something. It was fascinating and a bit nauseating at the same time to see the muscles and organs and things.

Well lets go from that to food ;) I read a review about a sandwich shop before we went and wanted to try it. Once we ate there we made the decision to continue doing so until we left. Its called Capriotti's and it was fantastic, we loved the grilled Italian sandwich that had each slice of meat grilled and sweet peppers and provolone and everything about it was great. Here's a link to their site
My dad and stepmom only live about four hours away and met us in Vegas the evening before we left to come home. We ate dinner at a really good restaurant in the Venetian. Then we went to the Bellagio to show them the Christmas display they had inside. Which is where we took this Christmas card picture! We went to our hotel and taught them how to play Pai Gow, stayed up late and then took them back to their hotel.
We left earlier in the morning so we decided not to sleep that night. We packed up dropped our car off and went to the airport. We were worried about getting home but only had a short delay in Denver. Our power that had been out at home since the day after we flew to Vegas was turned back on the night before we got home. It was a perfect time to be on vacation. We were sad for our families, but glad everyone stayed safe. I think I probably enjoyed the whole vacation a little more than Zack but he was really glad to have taken me there, we had talked about it for a while. Anyways I'll try to remember to post that video on here later...theres my huge blog about my trip :)

Wednesday, December 5, 2007


This is me just talking, rambling, whatever. My brain is tired of talking to itself.

First of all.. Zach is out of town and has been for a week and half. Its all very odd. I miss him just being here. Having the option to hug him or talk his ear off or poke at him.
At the same time, I have enjoyed my alone time. I hung out with my friends some, but I have told them no I don't wanna leave and I don't want company several times. Yeah yeah I've been playing WoW too, but Ive also just been sitting alone in my thoughts and listening to music, which really I don't do much anymore.

Work has been really busy, Christmas-time is always more busy than the rest of the year, but since I am not going to be here next week its much more hectic. I've got tables of orders that can't be filled until I finish my stuff. So I normally work 4 hours a day and this week I have been staying for 7. Its been good to get more hours and get stuff done, but being there in that moldy place sucks too. I was stressed earlier in the week, but I think I am going to be able to get things caught up enough so next week there won't be too many people waiting on orders. I got much of the website stuff I needed to get done finished already, the rest can wait until I get back.

My house and its contents are a giant barrier I would like to leap tonight or tomorrow. I need it to be clean, completely clean and done. I want to come home to a nice house when we get back from Vegas. And I want that feeling of accomplishment that comes when you do something completely alone. I have been having a dilemma about my Christmas tree. Its not up yet. I want it up, I love Christmas-time and decorating; however, I want Zack to care and want to help me do it, which means.. either it won't get done or we will do it a couple days before Christmas. I'm not sure if I am motivated to do it by myself right now either.

As far as Vegas goes- I'm excited and anxious at the same time. I'm believing for no delays on Zack's flight home and our flights there and back. I don't know what all we are doing and I don't know if I am bringing the right amount of money, but there is nothing I can do about that since neither of us get paid again til the day we come home.

Really there is a lot of emotions and things I would like to express, but I don't actually want to or know how to share. I think maybe I need to pull out my sketch book. I have a hard time conveying what I mean in words when the topic gets philosophical, leans toward inner conflict, or just when I have incoherent ideas.

If you were motivated to read this far, thanks for letting my mind breathe a little; whether I said anything useful or not I feel better getting to talk, or type.

Friday, November 2, 2007


Inga tagged me, and since today is her birthday it seemed appropriate to respond :)

7 Random things about me:

1. Feet freak me out, I don't like other's too close to me

2. I have a hard time keeping up with everyone I care about

3. One summer when I was young i wore this neon colored sleeveless cotton dress with ruffles and built in shorts everyday until my mom threw it out

4. I have never broken anything or had to go to the emergency room (except for other people)

5. One of my passions is food, i love it, i havent figured out how to balance it yet though

6. I really enjoy the idea of fantasy worlds and things you can lose yourself in- like books, loud music, video games, movies,tv shows, and a really good imagination

7. I have a hard time not crying over things I cannot control, whether it be in my own life or empathy for someone elses problems

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

September 18th

I feel happy :)
can you guess why?
today is our 2nd anniversary! its funny it feels like we've been together for a long time but its funny to think we have been married for 2 whole years. I still don't feel old enough to be married.
It is interesting how our perception of age as a child changes every year we age. I remember thinking I would get married at 18 and how mature I thought seniors in high school were. But when I turned 18 that was a horrifying thought because I was SOO young! Even at 21 I still felt a bit too young. But married life really came easily.
I'm awesome at kind of rambling on and throwing comma's and spaces and page breaks in.
Whatever lol
We are going to go to dinner tonight to The Cheesecake Factory, which we have both been wanting since we went there in Chicago. We don't really have much else planned. I am just happy to have my husband and that I get to keep him forever.
I wish I had some cool poem or something epic to say but really I just have a big grin on my face
I feel giggly and I love my silly husband!

on another note I wish to be supergirl for halloween

Tuesday, August 28, 2007


We have talked about going to Vegas for a while; Zack use to live there and I have never been and there is so much he wants to show me. We want to go before we start having babies, because then it may be put off for a very very long time. So we finally planned it. It's hard a little bit to spend the money that could be used for more practical things, but after we bought our plane tickets I stopped worrying about it. I tend to have buyers remorse before I do things instead of after. We are going to go in December for a week! We are already planning where to go and what to do. I am the one who has traveled a lot in the past, and its really nice to have Zack being the one to know what to do and where to go. Its all new and exciting to me!
And now 2 major things we wanted to do before having kids (buying a house and going on vacation alone one last time) are being checked off the list.. dun dun dun

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

8 raNdOm ThinGs

My sister's in law did this and theirs made me laugh so I have to do it too :D
  1. In high school starting with 9th grade I was at least 1 minute late everyday to my first hour. By the time I hit senior year my teachers tried everything. I had to sit in the hall for 20 minutes, do 10 pushups for every minute late, detention, and finally intervention. I still can't seem to make it to anything at 8am. 7am I can do, or anytime after 8:30.
  2. I get cravings for salt and vinegar chips and chocolate milk at the same time.
  3. I can sing actual songs with words and all with my mouth closed, but cannot hum whatsoever, I sound completely tone deaf.
  4. Apparently when I am excited about something I am talking about I wobble my head. Zack is the only person who has ever noticed without me telling them.
  5. My favorite color is green, next is pink and brown together, but a lot of the time when I choose something it is a bright blue.
  6. I am 5'9" and the shortest in my family.
  7. I play an massive mutliplayer online role-playing game on a regular basis.
  8. I can do a back-bend and stand back up easily no matter how heavy I am.

I could make a list that is much longer than this but I better not.

Saturday, August 4, 2007

marriage meme

Merry Weather tagged her readers to play along with the marriage meme. So without further ado, here are eight facts about our marriage:

1. We have been married for almost 2 years.

2. He proposed to me on our trip to Europe, in Hohenschwangau, Germany. We were next to a crystal clear lake made from melted snow underneath Neuschwanstein castle (which is what Cinderella's castle was made to look like). We had hot cocoa at sunrise and started to walk back and he asked,"So, you still want to be in a relationship for 3 years before getting married?" (i had told him previously that i planned this)

3. He is almost 5 years older than me, and I am quite happy with it.

4. Shortly after we married we got a pet :) Her name is Lucy she is a grey cat.

5. We just bought our first house together this year.

6. We rarely ever fight, in fact I don't remember one. Instead he tickles me until I get completely overwhelmed and chase after him, he laughs at my frustrations and in turn just makes me giggle.

7. We were together a year and half before our wedding.

8. We are both the baby of our families and it seems to have worked out quite well.

Friday, August 3, 2007


This is the Simpsons version of me. Today is my 23rd and 2 month birthday!
I am really happy its summer, even if it is sopping wet with humidity. I feel very back to normal and happy again. Im not really sure how long I haven't felt this way but its nice to be myself again. What comes with this is my desire to be social and silly and just play. Which in turn means I have not been so very productive at work. Nor have I done too much of my last couple weeks of homework. But hopefully I will get it all done before my last class on Monday.
I have been working on losing weight for a while now. And well, its not been the easiest thing for me to do. I lose weight on slim-fast, but I get bored after a while and just quit. Really giving up after 2-3 weeks has really been my problem for the last year. I totally crap out and just eat tons, go out to eat all the time and stop thinking about it. Then BAM! I gained the weight back I worked so hard to lose and maybe a little more. I don't have a problem telling people my weight, because well you can see what I look like.. does it really change your opinion of me if you know my exact weight? Maybe if I wore loose clothes all the time but I dont. So... anyways: Last year at this time I lost some weight down to 230. Then last December? my mom and I weighed and measured and I was up to 244. Oh boy was I excited... When I started Slim-fast again I was 241 and lost to 236. Then crapped out again. I tried Alli but I have trouble remembering to take pills at the right time. Now I am down to 232.5. But this time is different. I have slowly changed some of my habits. Im becoming a little more active, eating just a little bit less for dinner, trying to eat quite a bit less for lunch, and begun eating more fruit and veggies. These arent dramatic changes at all, but adding them together has made me have more energy and lose just a few pounds. And now I am actually WANTING to do active things. I rode my bike 5 miles 2 days ago. And I was exhausted, but I LOVED the way I felt when I was done. Especially since my hobbies mostly include going out to eat where I feel horrible for hours afterwards. Im sure the activity and vitamins Im getting from eating fruits and vegetables is a big cause for the improvement of my mood. Its nice to feel myself again and have motivation..even if it is just motivation to play!

Sunday, July 29, 2007


I had trouble with this, there was things I chose 2 answers on. So I took it twice and I think both of these have bits that show a part of me..

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.

On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.

You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.

Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.

You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.

You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.

Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.

Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.

You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.

Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.

In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.

Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.

You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

Thursday, July 26, 2007

wasting time and enjoying it :)

We'll I am at work and of course I should not be on my blog on the computer, but I feel quite talkative and needed to chat a little and since the only person who works at the same office to me is a 66 year old guy; I thought blogging might let me get a bit more out. I am in a really good mood today; which if you spoke to me yesterday you might be surprised of this. Zach had mowed the yard after he got off work yesterday by the time I got home and then we watched a movie together. It was a REALLY nice surprise and a nice evening. My kitchen is a complete disaster and I keep picturing how bad it looks in my mind, but other than that everything is going ok. My brother got married over the weekend in California, as did my 16 year old step sister in Oklahoma. I went to my brother's wedding to Erin and it was probably the best wedding I've ever been to. I mean my wedding was perfect for me, but this was like the reception from Father of the Bride. It was a lot of fun. The trip was exhausting though and I gained five pounds eating out with good food all weekend. But I lost it already going back to eating a little less than normal. I can feel myself starting to ramble...dun dun dun.. We'll I guess I can always post something else later if I think of it. Hope everyone is having a nice July!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

The Moaning Meme

I was tagged a while ago but im just now getting around to this:

I've been tagged! Oooh a meme! I've been tagged by Merry Weatherwith a meme originating from The Freelance Cynic and this one's about my groanings.

Affectionately called: The Moaning Meme

4 things that should go into room 101 and be removed from the face of the earth.
-Gorey movies: they freak me out
-Mosquitoes: I stole this answer but im allergic and really hate them because they love me
-Long lines: they make me a nervous wreck, whether it be standing in line or traffic
-Homework: no matter how old I get I will always hate homework, I can't focus in my home where Im suppose to eat, sleep, relax, spend time with my family, etc.. I would much rather do it all in a classroom setting.

3 things people do that make you want to shake them violently.
-Spend money on junk BEFORE paying their bills.
-Not finishing even one topic in a conversation that consisted of 20.
-Ride peoples bumper, especially at night.

2 things you find yourself moaning about.
-My house being dirty and my inability to completely finish it before its destroyed again.
-Work, school, running errands

1 thing the above answers tell you about yourself.
-I'm lazy, but I already knew this

Link to the original meme at so people know what it's all about!
Be as honest as possible, This is about letting people get to know the real you!
Try not to insult anyone - unless they really deserve it or are very, very ugly!

Post these rules at the end of every meme!

Today I'm tagging:

hmm.. I want to tag bobbi so i will have to convince her to make a blogspot.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Blogging: beliefs and 5 paragraph essays

I started taking some classes for different Internet "stuff". And in the main one I am taking they had the description of what a blog was and it got me thinking. A blog according to this book is an online collection of ideas and opinions of person. Well my blogs are more a diary: a collection of my comments and stories of my life and complaints and frustrations. And not that its a bad thing to post stories and describe events, I thought maybe it would be nice to post something with my ideas, opinions, and beliefs. Doing so actually feels a lot more personal than expressing my day to day life, these are some of my thoughts that I may or may not express in person.
Warning: I ramble a lot, sometimes I talk to much, please don't take offense to anything I say; I never mean to offend anyone but have come to realize sometimes the longer I keep my mouth open the more feelings get hurt.

Even though I have a lot more responsibilities and duties at the age I am, I believe the teenage years are the hardest possible years of someones life. Youth is the first time in life that one really looks hard into themself and asks, "Who Am I?". What an extremely difficult question. "What is my soul, spirit, beliefs, faith, values, and what things to I really enjoy and want to do with my life?". The only time not spent on finding oneself is the endless school nights spent on five paragraph essays.

I went though a lot of inner turmoil for several years. I believed myself to have great faith in God, I went to church and religious events an unusual portion of my time and church camp every year. Not just any camp: a camp that I listened to teachings during the day and cried out to God after very emotional worship and preaching services at night. I was not the only one. My brother and my youth group were my closest friends and all went through this together(we all fell hard together also). I prayed consistently for God to tell me what to do with my life, but although I do believe God has spoken to me throughout my life, I do not believe the answers I got were God-given but self created. Every time I asked I got a different answer and it was usually what I had been thinking about doing at that time. Seven years later I am still at a loss for what I really want for a career; however, I still want what I wanted when I was four years old on vacation sitting in a hotel room with my mom. She told me how when I grow up I can be anything I want to be in the whole world, and after many explanations that I could be a firewomen or doctor or preacher I still only wanted one thing. I angrily told her again "I just want to be a mommy!". And still, more than any career, I want to be a mother. I am not desperate to be pregnant, but I am at peace to wait to really find my career until I have had the joy of having my children.

"What about your faith?" you may wonder. Well this subject really does mean a lot to me, but is hard for me to express to others. I find myself open minded, not necessarily on what I believe, but I feel like I need to understand what others believe and why in order to really understand my own beliefs. I believe in God and the Trinity, and that Jesus is the son of God and died for our failings so we might be able to be in communication with God like man once had. I believe the Holy Spirit is the way we are able to as our comforter and communicator and many other things. I believe in speaking in tongues and have been able to since I was five, when I prayed to accept the holy spirit and speaking in tongues, sitting in the floor of our blue van. I personally have understood speaking in tongues to be for two things: 1. God speaking through us to those we would not otherwise be able to speak to and 2. for us to be able to pray for someone and speak to God when we have fear in our heart and do not no why. Such as, I have been impressed strongly in my spirit to pray for someone I have not spoken to in a long time; I didn't have a clue what was wrong in their life and had nothing to say in English to pray for them for, so instead I would pray in tongues and let the holy spirit speak through me on the behalf of someone who needed prayer. No I don't understand completely how the trinity works and I don't believe we weren't meant to yet. I think a lot of things about God are way over our heads, and I'm fine with that, I mean why should WE understand GOD!?! Now as far as church itself goes I think its a good thing, I think its purpose is fellowship with others who believe what we believe and support in our faith. However, I haven't found a church home yet where I feel comfortable and right now I am not really in the mood to look. So I have shortcomings..oh well. OH oh ya, I am the granddaughter of a faith teacher and I do believe your words have a major impact on your life and what God is able to do with your life. I try to be careful what I say, but sometimes I cuss like a sailor too. I also don't have a problem with the big bang theory, why? because I know the one part that they scientists need to complete it. What started it? God's words. If our words can move mountains, think of what God's can do. Sometimes I am afraid to speak of my beliefs in God, but it is because I am not an expert these are my opinions beliefs and thoughts, I have ideas what heaven is, but really I have no clue about any of it and I like it that way.

I went through years and years of trying to find myself as a teenager. What did I find? That's the best part: I don't know. My career I accepted that I will discover later. My beliefs in God I happily take as my own. I still have to reinvent myself every few years. Life is constantly changing and you have to change with it. All of life cannot be deep thoughts into your beliefs and values. Most of the time you live day to day enjoying the company of family and friends, and forcing yourself to go to work and do laundry. Sometimes it makes me feel shallow not dwelling in the depths of my mind and writing poetry or painting dreadful paintings. But I can't help it; I like bright colors, cartoons, and giggling with friends over absolutely nothing. I also deal with depression on and off, where I would much rather be alone and cry and dwell in my unjustified misery. I hate being overweight yet much of my thoughts are wasted on food. This is who I am and I will continue changing and staying the same as my life goes on. Everything in my past has created who I am now, including my English teachers who gave me the ability to write a blog.

It's Raining its Pouring...

Here is my story for the day:

I left work a little early because I didn't have much to do; I wanted to eat lunch with someone so I drove to my friend Jessie's house. We went and got wraps at a little cafe she likes on Main street.We both needed to mow our yards because its been raining so much they have just grown too tall. So we decided to go together and get gas for our mowers. After that I went back to her house to get her mower started because she just got it. I accidentally filled the oil to high and all over the place, so I had to pour some of it out into a little bucket. Then we adjusted the blades and such; this was all actually quite entertaining, but I guess you would have to know both of us or just be there. Then I headed home. As soon as I pulled into my house which was only a mile started raining. To say the least I was pissed off. My yard looks bad and I really needed to mow it. So angrily I got the gas can out of my trunk and took it to the backyard to put in the shed. In the meantime the rain picks starts POURING! By the time I walk back to the front of the house my anger is gone and Im histarically laughing and drenched from scrunci to flip flops. I kinda wish it would have rained for longer than the five minutes so I could have just stayed and played in it since I was already wet.

Wednesday, June 6, 2007


My birthday was Sunday and it was good. We got up and just played WoW on the computer and we went to Waffle House to eat brunch. I wanted something better but I didnt want to go very far away. We went to Lasertag at 3:30 where Megan, Shauna, Justin, Julie, and Kersten were meeting us to play. But after a few minutes Julie called crying cause they got in a hit and run. So we went to where they were at to check on them. Julie was bruised up mostly from the seatbelt and Justin banged his knee up, but nothing that they needed the ambulance for, thank goodness. We stayed there for a while until they could go and I got in Megans car and they got in our car. Zack took them back to Justin's apartment to rest and I went to Lasertag where Kersten was waiting. Us 4 played a game and had a lot of fun, i got 5th out of like 30. Then Zack was almost back so we waited for him to play our 2nd game. The guy who explained that one was REALLY annoying and Zack was about done, but we finally got in and had fun. I got 6th that time out of 15ish. I think everyone liked it. I didnt like that punk lil kid chasing me but ya know.. After that we went to Ruby Tuesdays, which is like my favorite restaurant but was far away until they opened one here last week. It was me, Zach, Megan, Joey, Shauna, Justin, Julie, Caleb, and Kersten at dinner. It was good of course except they are new so the service wasnt quite up there yet, but im sure it will be after a couple months. After dinner zach and i went and played monopoly with justin and julie. WHICh i WON!! whoo hoo! and then went home. It was overall a good birthday!

Friday, June 1, 2007

First Blog

Well I am sorting colors and picking layouts, trying to get this thing to look slightly like I made it. Its almost my birthday and I am excited. I always look forward to my birthdays and always try to plan something fun. We are going to go play laser tag this year. I'm feeling pretty tired today, Im not sure why. I am really really glad its the weekend though. We are going rock climbng and out to eat tonight too.